A discussion of momentum had while drunk.

There are differences in the kinds of sadness people experience.

There are shallow experiences, where things have been made purposefully difficult – the problem experienced for no gain but other peoples’ condolences

Some people create sadness for challenge, a personal experience that doesn’t exploit people’s empathy, but rather disregards their contact. It’s a matter of spite.

There is very little difference. Both are selfish and for personal gain. But what else is this time for than the personal gain of experience – even those small moments of satisfaction where you have given the very end.

I am the person who creates sadness through challenge.
And most unfortunately, my challenge is seen and experienced by others as difficulty. And I face the adversity of their immediate engagement in other’s unassuming and naïve giving.
I am so very sad that those who seek adversity through mere meaningless difficulty are echoes of aloneness, and that they are ignorant of the challenge and personal sacrifice that is needed to be great.

Of course: the greatness through challenge and personal learning. But to what influence – that too is a selfish end.

I want someone else’s happiness. But at the expense of himself. And I am the weaker and sadder person for conciliation – but damn it would be great to be a little less sad, and a little more challenged. '

*Skewed remembrances of conversations with Ryan and Alysha